Hiroshima

Sixty-four years ago the bomb was dropped on Hiroshima. Today in the harbor stands the statue of a young girl holding aloft a paper crane.

For several years now I've been folding paper cranes ... my prayer and hope for peace

Cucumbers, radishes and Zen Masters

Ed Brown is a Zen Priest and chef. He's produced a lovely DVD called How to Cook Your Life. Cooking lessons, meditation, walking, chanting and bowing at Tassajara and Green Gulch.

He went to Tassajara first in 1966 where he got a job as a dishwasher, learned to make bread and soups, and scrub the floor. His anecdotes are humorous and heartwarming. After several failed attempts at breadmaking, he had success and wrote a book The Tassajara Bread Book and later another The Tassajara Recipe Book

There are clips from the early days of his teacher, Suzuki Roshi, a laughing and joyful man. David Chadwick wrote a wonderful full biography of his life and called it Crooked Cucumber

Ed Brown talked about his Mum, who died when he was three years old. He said something that grabbed my heart and held on. He said, "she was getting ready to die". That's often how I feel when I meditate (not in a morbid way) ... a letting go, and it feels right. I used to say, when people asked what I was doing, "I'm learning how to die", but "getting ready" is a better description.

I rented this DVD, but I think I may buy it ... it really is lovely.

first morning

Morning has broken, like the first morning
Blackbird has spoken, like the first bird
Praise for the morning, praise for the singing
God's re-creation of the first day

Cat Stevens

for Grant

I wonder in what fields today

he chases dragonflies in play

my little boy who ran away

Chiyo-ni

on the death of her son

at the Monk's Cabin

ENDLESS VOW
The Zen Path of Soen Nakagawa


A monk living alone
maple leaves
cover the entire mountain



So hitori sumu manzan no momiji kana

This is a sketch I made of the monk's cabin I lived in at Sonoma Mountain

Spring Sesshin at Palolo

Robert and I cooked for the spring sesshin in Hawaii. He came from Florida and I came from Canada

Enso

The universal enso on my new t-shirt symbolizes enlightenment and oneness with nature. Zenga are the ink paintings and calligraphy of Japanese Zen Buddhist monks from approximately 1600 to the present.

The calligraphy reads:

Pure white birds set against

emerald waters,

Green mountains ablaze

with blooming flowers.

Sitting

Not Knowing

"In the most ordinary terms, egolessness is a flexible identity. It manifests as inquisitiveness, as adaptability, as humor, as playfulness. It is our capacity to relax with not knowing, not figuring everything out, with not being at all sure about who we are - or who anyone else is either."

- Pema Chodron

Solstice Garden

summer solstice

winter solstice

A Taste of Heaven and Earth

This is my favorite cookbook for three reasons ... the recipes are good, it's vegetarian, and there are lovely brush paintings scattered throughout

There are contemplative essays and ink drawings to heighten the sensory experience in the kitchen

Since my two years of working in the kitchen at a Zen Center in Hawaii, I appreciate the author's approach to cooking and eating. The kitchen is a place of transformation. In the Zen tradition, serving as Tenzo (head cook) is considered an excellent opportunity for practice. The literature of Zen is filled with kitchen anecdotes and stories of enlightenment coming through simple daily chores.

There is so much more to cooking than meets the eye. Friends think I'm nuts when I say that I enjoy washing dishes and sweeping the floor.

I couldn't decide whether to put this post here or in my book blog. What do you think?

There's another small and lovely book I want to write about ... Sweeping Changes by Gary Thorp, a lay monk who emphasizes the intent surrounding each housekeeping activity, not the end result of cleanliness. Lawns should be mindfully mowed "with every fiber of your being"; dishes should be washed with particular, single-minded care. "Your life and all that's in it are simply on loan to you and are clearly precarious," cautions Thorp, encouraging readers to use certain chores (raking dead leaves, recycling and mending clothes, for example) as occasions to reflect on the transience of life.

There is a Crack in Everything

Starting Over

cleaning the altar

lighting the candle

starting again

Soen Nakagawa

ENDLESS VOW
The Zen Path of Soen Nakagawa

Into the twilight zendo

maple leaves

come dancing

Zendo no naka nimo mai nu yumomiji

Crane Lady

On most Saturdays we meet at the Men's Prison for a meditation group. M is a nun in the Tibetan tradition .... we meet in the dining hall with a small group of prisoners. Guards look on, but as yet none have joined us.

We meditate, drink tea and talk ... and fold paper cranes. We started with very large pieces of newspaper because it's easier to fold a large one when first learning. Many of them were set in flight about the hall ... like paper airplanes. We laughed a lot and ate all the cookies.





Over a few weeks, we gradually progressed to smaller and smaller models until the guys became familiar with the folds. They hung the cranes in their rooms when they went back. They don't live in cells here, but in blocks of duplexes scattered about the grounds.

Eventually I became known as "the crane lady"

at Sonoma Mountain Zen Center

During the three-month Summer Training Period, I lived in this very tiny cabin at the bottom of the hill near the river. The main building, dining hall, and Zendo are about 1/4 mile up the hill. There is no water or electricity, so I carried jugs of water for drinking and washing. Toilets are outdoors and also up the hill. I kept an ice cream bucket outside for a night time potty. There is a solar shower; the water is icy cold until about 10 in the morning when the sun comes round the mountain to warm the reservoir ... and then again in late afternoon about 4 or 5 when the sun disappears again.

Pema Chodron had been here for a month on a private and personal retreat just before I arrived. She lived in another larger cabin and took her meals in her room.














My favorite work assignment was cooking. Adam and I are preparing lunch for about 30 ... behind is the dining hall where there is a tea and coffee bar. Outside the kitchen door is a gong that we strike with a wooden mallet to announce that meals are ready.

Each day begins with meditation ... it's very early, so I usually came here first for a good jolt of caffeine. Only tea is served at meals, but the coffee bar is always available to use during our spare time. After meditation, we walked down the hill to practice Chi Kung by the river. After breakfast we met outside, forming a circle to sing that old Cat Stevens song - "morning has broken, like the first morning" - to hear any announcements for the day and to receive our work assignments.

at Palolo

This is where I lived for three years when I was studying with Robert Aitken Roshi at Palolo Zen Center in Hawaii



I worked in the kitchen part time to help pay for my room and board

Old Ghosts

the kitchen at Cortes - it's September and the leaves have begun to turn ... returning to my heart place where I lived and worked for three years

returning now for a three-day retreat to visit some old ghosts and put them to rest

Looking for Maia

Maia and I walked here almost every Sunday when she was alive. She's gone now, and I miss her more than I can say.



I walked to the end of the spit last weekend, but she wasn't there. That walk now is sad and lonely ... it's not much fun without her

Han Shan - the Hermit Monk

Cold mountain has many hidden wonders
people who climb here are always getting scared
when the moon shines, water sparkles clear
when the wind blows, grass swishes and rattles

On the bare plum, flowers of snow
on the dead stump, leaves of mist
at the touch of rain it all turns fresh and live
at the wrong season, you can’t ford the creeks.

Gary Snyder - Cold Mountain Poems